The Circle of Confusion is coming along.

 I'm at close to 25,200 words into The Circle of Confusion and its really coming along. Here's a tidbit:

What about you, Brandi?” Jamie asked. “Your mom is pretty religious.”

“And a Baptist no less,” Brandi said with a nod. “But my mom has been through a lot of shit and she knows a lot of other people whose lives are less than perfect so she’s more open minded than Lori’s parents. And, my mother is more concerned with my happiness. Clearly, they are not interested in Lori’s happiness. My mom also believes that our relationships with God are our own. And she believes that God is a loving and forgiving God, not a condemning God.”

“You know,” Kayla said, “I will never understand why these religious fanatics are so against us being happy. Okay, so being gay might be a sin in their eyes, but it’s our sin. It’s our relationship with our God that may be in jeopardy, which of course you all know I don’t believe any of that shit. But, I just don’t get why they are so violently against us making our own decisions about what we will feel God thinks about us being gay. I mean, I understand Lori’s parents wanting to protect her from herself, but she’s a grown woman and ultimately it’s her decision about her relationship with God.”

“Exactly,” I said. “I’ve read the Bible from cover to cover and I have my own personal relationship with God, who I think is going to love me no matter if I’m gay or not. But my parents are still of the frame of mind that if you are not absolutely perfect you aren’t going to Heaven.”

“But, are they being absolutely perfect by judging other people?” Brandi said.

Posting in the Mist of Chaos

I have all five of my grandchildren, ages 9 thru 3. So it's taken me longer than normal to get this post put up. :) The Circle of Confusion is coming along. I'm up to 17502 words. The story is really coming together. I've already posted a tidbit to my M. E Tudor blog. So here's the next piece:

The next morning I got up extra early. I knew I wouldn’t get out of the house before Dad got up, but I thought I might be able to slip out without having to talk to Mom. I went out of my bedroom to the bathroom and when I came back I noticed a note with picture on it stuck to my door. The picture was of me kissing Carrie outside her hotel the last time she was in town. The note said, “Do not leave this house!”

“Oh shit,” I whispered. I slipped back into my room and packed my duffle bag with clothes, took some of my important personal stuff and put it in my backpack, including all of my text books. Things were going to get really ugly if they knew about me and Carrie. 

I stuck my head out my door and looked around for Mom. It was only five-thirty so she was probably still in bed. Tiptoeing, I went to Janna’s room and slipped inside. I crept up to her bed and gently nudged her. “Janna, wake up.”

“What?” she mumbled.

“Mom and Dad know about me and Carrie being together the last time she was in town.”
Janna rolled over with wide eyes. “Are you serious? Was that what you guys were fighting about last night?”

“No, we were fighting about me not wanting to get married and they want me to quit school.”

“Quit school?” she asked, astonished. “Why?”

“They think it’s what’s causing all these radical thoughts I have. But there was a picture of me kissing Carrie with a note on my door that said for me not to leave the house.”

Janna sat up. “Oh shit!”

New Tidbits!

I'm up to 11, 242 words into The Circle of Confusion and I wanted to give you all a tidbit from the story. I will also be posting a tidbit on my other blog, http://metudor.blogspot.com/ So here is the tidbit for this blog:

“I don’t know where your mother has gotten her information about you having sexual relationships with other girls, but it had better not be true. And you are to stay away from those gay people. Find someone else to help you with your homework. I’m sure there are some very intelligent young ladies at our church who would be glad to help you. And,” he straightened, moved closer to me and grabbed my chin, forcing me to look up at him, “if I find out that you are running around with those girls. If I ever hear that you are having sexual relationships with other girls, you will leave this house forever. Is that clear?” His voice had gotten deeper and angrier as he spoke. He had leaned down so his face was directly in mine.

The Circle of Confusion Coming Along

I'm up to 5865 words and it's only day 3 of camp!

Here's another snippet:

I could feel Jamie glaring at me from behind. For an only child, she was a serious mother hen. She ran roughshod over P. J., Kayla, Brandi and me. Ever since we all hooked up that first semester of school, when we all had the same English 100 class, Jamie has helped each one of us with school. P.J. and she have given us a place to hand out where it’s cool to be a lesbian and we can talk freely about what’s going on in our lives. It’s been really great for me because my parents are so religious and have really been riding me about eventually getting married.

It Has Begun!

I have officially started writing The Circle of Confusion. I wrote 1655 words this morning. And, as promised, here is a snippet from the story:

"Winding up my pitch, I let the ball go with extra speed. As Leshana and I expected, Carrie swung and missed the high pitch. Carrie glared at me. I guess she thought I’d go easy on her after last night, but she should have known better. She should remember that I don’t mix business and pleasure. And, softball is my business right now."

 I will also be posting snippets to my official M.E. Tudor blog.